great...2nite turned out like shit

went hanging out with L...and we talked about kissing for about...30 min without actually kissing? WTF...that has never happened before.

i really don't know what it is...not alpha male at all
and up to now, im not sure how it turned out the way it did..

maybe we aren't attracted to each other after all...and forcing everything...
why? i have no idea....i can get other women...hmmm....what am i so afraid of?


on other news...there is this girl at work that has a bf that im getting along really well with...i got a text from her this wk tellin me she' getting pretty comfortable with me....
usually i stay hands off of anything like this but this girl interests me a lot ...she seems so very unique...so powerfull...yet weak
i went out with her last weekend and for 3 hrs we talked about evrythin yet nothin...was special...hmmmm

this other girl this wk told me she was suck me off...and that we have to meet up....

this other woman from at work asked me to get in her car...then told me she wants to taste my lips..

and what have i done in all of these cases? NOTHING...frig..
thing is...i dont know why im not doin anything....:S this is one of the lower moments *sigh